crazy day&nights!

well...ever since monday...michael & i have been great since then...and our "non-torturing" break...well...that didn't last long...i know it kicked in on wednesday...naughty me! :0 haha...well since monday...michael's been visiting me...so it's all good...haha! on friday...me, michael, lykim, & eughene went to eughene's house...so hang out...let's just say, "Double Date!"....haha! it was fun ahgning out with them again...on saturday we went to gray anne's birthday party...that was fun-ish...i finally watched "advent children" ....frickin' great movie...my number one movie...well i was tempted in joselito's bedroom when me and michael were in there alone...OMG! but then we controled ourselves...so 925pm...i had to go home...so vince gave michael his car keys and asked us to get gass for him too...well get the gas...then when we got to my house...i didn't want to go in...so we parked away from my house...and we stayed in the car and "talked" for a bit. then around 1015pm...michael leaves....and i was stuck at home...well for today...it went well....didn't do much torturing so yeah...and umm...my mom bought me new curtains...haha!

that's all what happened since monday...so i guess i should go now and enjoy the rest of my night...C-YA! :)

being forgiven

well yesterday sensei picked me up from home...and michael skipped 5th and 6th period...to be with me...aww...n/e wayz...cuz everything wasn't going to well...i haven't put on a smile for awhile...michael asked, "please smile for me!"...i said, "i can't" and i almost cried...good thing that 5th period was sensei's prep period...so yeah....6th period came and 2 of our friends are in that class...so we had to put a FAKE smile on....but when after school came....that's when i poured out my heart to him once again...and telling him that i want to spend my entire life with him....even through the afterlife...i tell him the future plans we both promised each other...and i ask him, "how are you feeling?"...and he says, "a lot better" that put a smile on my face...he's everything to me...he forgave me for what i said a few months ago! :)

forgiveness!

well i talked to michael this morning....i thought it would've been better...but i guess it's ok...he's still thinking about it...and he told me that he cried last night while he was writing me a letter...aww....but anywayz...it's been hard on both of us....i cried myself to sleep last night....and i cried this morning after the phone call...yeah...this is how bad it is...but we'll get through it...it's just another hill on our road...we never asked for a simple one...i just hope that michael forgives me from what i said in the past...please! i hope he is....hmm...it hurts that he doesn't...i just wanna hear from his heart that he forgives me...i love him so much...i don't know what to do...i guess i'll ask belda to talk to him...or not...i don't know what to do....*tear* n/e wayz...i guess i'll go now...


"When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds
of forgiveness can erase it away.
But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.“

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND
AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

aching!

friday:
well i got dressed at 6 something in the morning...i woke up dad at 615am...then we left around 630...i get dropped off at morse...and i walk to my friends...philip and belda were there...i talk to them and everyone else comes...michael was the last one to come over...when he comes we go to the other guys...that was fun...then when the bell rung...michael drops me off at sensei's and we kiss and he goes to class...it was fun helping sensei out...lunch came and i hung out with michael and belda...mostly with michael of course...then after school came...we hanged out in the front with rodel...then rodel left...antho came to us then left...then belda and lykim's brother comes to us...that was fun...then shawn comes...then we all leave to go to lykim's house...YES we walked...i think we shouldn't have walked...but it's ok...when we got to lykim's everything went back to normal....but when me and michael started to walk to my house...it started alright...then it got bad...then it got better...in house it was alright then it got bad...then it got better...then it got worse...it hurt so much that michael was feeling like that...my heart opened up to him...i NEVER done that for anyone...then later it got better when my dad came home...at 11pm something we dropped him off home...

yesterday:
our 8 month...yup! it's been great...michael came over and started off great...then a little off...then great again...that we went to the mall with my parents....that was fun...then we ordered pizza...then we went home...then we got the pizza...that was fun...then we went back home and we ate...michael left around 9 soemthing...

today:
well i went to NEX with my parents then to walmart...they ALMOST 4got me...grr...then we went home...around 5 soemthing...michael comes over...it started off well but ended badly...michael is still thinking about it...i don't know what will get through that head of his...i don't know what to do...i'm waiting for his call..but i know he won't call..i'm just hoping he will!

prayer:
dear GOD, it's me sharon...i know it's been so long since i've talked to you and asked you for anything...but i don't want what i said in april to effect me and michael...it's burning through his head and i'm worried and scared...i'm trying my best to keep his spirits up but he ends up putting it down...please help him...heal him! please! even though he doesn't want it...he needs it and he knows he needs it...he's just too stubborn to ask for it...please! with all my heart help him get through this...he's my everything...and i will never let him go...please!

THANK YOU!

jealousy is a bitch!

well today is michael's second day of school...knowing that abbie has 4th period with him...kinda drills in my head...but i'm telling myself that "it's nothing"..."don't worry about it"..."i trust him"... so yeah....so right now i'm just listening to one song over and over again...haha...cuz i'm an idiot like that...and because i'm home alone..and i'm blasting it...hehe!...i feel like dancing...hmm...well at least my jealousy isn't that bad like it was before...hehe...well i trust him...and i know he loves me...so NO WORRIES!

bOrEd

well michael came over on sunday and yesterday...it was fun...we watched movies and anime...hehe...and played PSO for the hell of it...hehe! then we would torture each other because yesterday was our last day to do it till december...aww...oh well...umm...on saturday michael was helping out his auntie move...i knew he was doing something for someone if he had to bail on me...oh well! hehe! well there's nothing really much to say....for today....michael and my friends are at school right now...first day of school...i rmember my first day of school...since i came i started at morse...i knew people but couldn't find them...hehe...then i made new friends till my senior year...i hung out with them...and now they're my closest friends...hehe...and i didn't expect myself to fall in love...it's such a great feeling...i love MY SEXYMAN!!! MY MICHAEL ROY MEDINA REASOL...HAHA!

alone & wasted

well i don't know what today will bring for me but yesterday felt really lonely...michael kept saying,"maybe" on friday night's phone call...i guess that "maybe" means NO...in his terms. last night around 9 soemthing joey comes ringing my doorbell for michael...i told him that michel never came...so i was thinking that he might be home or he went somewhere else. so i decided t talk to antho, eughene, and mark online...i talked to mark and asked if he talked to michael...and he tells me that he did...then we talk fro a bit. he asked me if i seen him or talked to him today..and i told him no. and he's like, why not?...and i tell him. then i told him that joey came over to pick him up...so yeah! i was worried...but i kind of thought about it that maybe his grandma stopped him to come over. MAYBE! so i waited for michael's call and i eventually fell alseep.