crazy day&nights!

well...ever since monday...michael & i have been great since then...and our "non-torturing" break...well...that didn't last long...i know it kicked in on wednesday...naughty me! :0 haha...well since monday...michael's been visiting me...so it's all good...haha! on friday...me, michael, lykim, & eughene went to eughene's house...so hang out...let's just say, "Double Date!"....haha! it was fun ahgning out with them again...on saturday we went to gray anne's birthday party...that was fun-ish...i finally watched "advent children" ....frickin' great movie...my number one movie...well i was tempted in joselito's bedroom when me and michael were in there alone...OMG! but then we controled ourselves...so 925pm...i had to go home...so vince gave michael his car keys and asked us to get gass for him too...well get the gas...then when we got to my house...i didn't want to go in...so we parked away from my house...and we stayed in the car and "talked" for a bit. then around 1015pm...michael leaves....and i was stuck at home...well for today...it went well....didn't do much torturing so yeah...and umm...my mom bought me new curtains...haha!

that's all what happened since monday...so i guess i should go now and enjoy the rest of my night...C-YA! :)

being forgiven

well yesterday sensei picked me up from home...and michael skipped 5th and 6th period...to be with me...aww...n/e wayz...cuz everything wasn't going to well...i haven't put on a smile for awhile...michael asked, "please smile for me!"...i said, "i can't" and i almost cried...good thing that 5th period was sensei's prep period...so yeah....6th period came and 2 of our friends are in that class...so we had to put a FAKE smile on....but when after school came....that's when i poured out my heart to him once again...and telling him that i want to spend my entire life with him....even through the afterlife...i tell him the future plans we both promised each other...and i ask him, "how are you feeling?"...and he says, "a lot better" that put a smile on my face...he's everything to me...he forgave me for what i said a few months ago! :)

forgiveness!

well i talked to michael this morning....i thought it would've been better...but i guess it's ok...he's still thinking about it...and he told me that he cried last night while he was writing me a letter...aww....but anywayz...it's been hard on both of us....i cried myself to sleep last night....and i cried this morning after the phone call...yeah...this is how bad it is...but we'll get through it...it's just another hill on our road...we never asked for a simple one...i just hope that michael forgives me from what i said in the past...please! i hope he is....hmm...it hurts that he doesn't...i just wanna hear from his heart that he forgives me...i love him so much...i don't know what to do...i guess i'll ask belda to talk to him...or not...i don't know what to do....*tear* n/e wayz...i guess i'll go now...


"When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds
of forgiveness can erase it away.
But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.“

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND
AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.